Any Affection
Who would guess that this stage of life I'm still looking for my people. Where are my people? I've floated on the ocean currents and let them take me into the next place and the next web of relationships. It never seemed to be my choice but more what the tide brought me, like Robinson Crusoe, alone on my island and then the ocean brought me companions. * “Do not allow yourself to be imprisoned by any affection. Preserve your solitude. The day, if it ever comes, when you are given true affection there will be no opposition between inner solitude and friendship, quite the reverse. It is even by this infallible sign that you will recognize it.” —Simone Weil, Gravity and Grace (1947) * Yet still there were the special relationships and friendships that seemed constant and predictable. All illusion because the tide has taken all of that back into the sea and I have to choose to remain as things are or take to my solitary oars again. My question to myself is a lifelong "Was I...
